Showing posts with label darkness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label darkness. Show all posts

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

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You cringe at each creak on the old warped stairs but that doesn’t sway your determination to reach the second floor. Your gaze is fixed on the top rotten step as you endure the climb. The walls watch. Things crawl under your skin.

The servant’s door shrieks on its hinges as an endless corridor empties into a dark master bedroom, occupied by a moth-eaten canopy bed dripping with cobwebs. Sallow peeling wallpaper sheds from the walls like dead snakeskin and flutters to the floorboards as you brush past. In the corner on a tattered rug sits a child’s wooden rocking horse, the seat worn smooth, the corded mane and tail coated in dirt. A mahogany chest of drawers stands lifeless with the top drawer still pulled out as if someone left in a hurry; a cracked mirror clings to the wall just above it, but you know better than to catch a glimpse of yourself in it.

The air is thick and heavy and it seems you inhale the shadows around the room as they cower and shrink back from the light of your candle. Their twisted silhouettes and outlines bottleneck in your throat like dead leaves circling a drain, and during this moment it becomes obvious that the quiver of a gentle candle flame may not be enough to keep the ghosts under the stairs… from coming out.

Slipping back the way you came, you creep down the hall like a thief and peer over the broken banister. Below lies a sad arrangement of disarray… sheets draped over furniture, tattered curtains hanging by mere threads, a cold stone fireplace, wet rotten holes in the plaster walls, a chandelier with broken strings of crystals, a man’s derby hat still hanging from a coat rack, and all manner of papers and debris strewn about the room.

THE WALLS LEAN IN.

Your blood suddenly stirs. Someone is crying in the room above you. Behind you are the attic stairs.

Your body’s reaction to the sudden drop in temperature sends an icy chill down your spine like a razor blade. A window is open somewhere. A dead breeze wafts the scent of mold and decay over you as the orange pinch of flame atop your stump of candle flickers once, twice, and then is gone. The darkness settles over your head and shoulders like a deathly bridal veil as your heartbeat quickens and goosebumps spread across your flesh. A foul dust in the air coats your tongue with a stale film and turns your throat to dry cotton. Now directly in front of you, like a tomb in a mausoleum, the attic door stands wide open, hanging by one hinge. There is movement in the walls.

Each stair screams out in pain as you ascend into the pitch darkness and both hands grip the wooden banister for fear of stumbling and falling backwards. At the summit, a few paces into the room, a lightbulb chain hangs in the blackness and you hold your breath as you give it a sharp tug. Nothing. Instead of flooding the room with light it seems to deepen the shadows even more, stirring up darkness like a diver stirring up soot in the belly of a shipwreck. You can’t see your hand in front of your face. Sweat soaks through your clothes, a hammer pounds at the insides of your chest and hot shivers cascade down your backbone. The silence is deafening.

Suddenly something moves in the room. You want to scream but you can’t. The sound of fingernails tear and claw at a chalkboard. A door slams somewhere downstairs. Hot tears spill down your cheeks. The mirror in the master bedroom crashes to the floor. Something moves toward you in the darkness. Your body commands you to make a break for the staircase but you’re far too paralyzed to move. Someone is screaming downstairs, shrieking with murderous ferocity, wailing with misery like a lamenting sailor’s widow. Footsteps pound down the second story hall from the master bedroom and pause at the foot of the attic stairs. Your vision blurs.

They know you’re here...

Just some random thoughts on a gloomy overcast rainy day...maybe..but i ask myself, 'Is real life much different from this?'

Saturday, January 29, 2011

emptyness




they say,there is a time for everything,and if you want to succeed in your life then that time-table should be maintained.but there-in lies 'me'.'coz you see,the clock in my computer says its 12.03 am,and a depressed 'me',is sitting in front of his laptop,with shaky hands,and a bottle(pint) of whiskey(which i stole from my dad's stock),and is writing down a blog,for which he couldn't decide a title.

they also say,that to be a good writer,you have to be an avid reader.well,as i m not much of a reader.I can't assure you,about the quality of this blog.all i can say is this is the perception of life,'
through my eyes'.

i am blogging,because i want to,and its keeping my head occupied,from the world around me,of which i am so
disgusted off..

i have some very basic questions going through my head right now,some of which i can't express in words,yet those which can,includes questions such as: "
why does it happen,that decisions are based on our ego?",or"why is it,that we often tend to remember the bad memories,while we store the good ones in some cold-forgotten locker of our subconscious?".its really in times,when you are depressed as hell,does these questions come to your head,but you never get the answers....do you..!!



today afternoon,when i was working on designing my blog-page(yes,i m still a bloody amateur),i had a completely different topic in mind,which i was to post this evening.yet somehow,the chain of events leading up to the dreaded 12.03 am,demanded '
me',to 'this',which makes me think of yet another thing.."life's too unpredictable,don't you think".

as i take the first sip of this undiluted whiskey (tastes like hell),i can't help but ponder ,why does life has to be so hard all the time.it keeps coming back at you.it never gives you time to settle,and the moment you think,you have a leash on it,the 'happy' life,slips away again.i just wish,i am consumed by the silence and the darkness of the serene night.
darkness is bliss.at
least for me.

so long for now,i just wish,life as it is,could be much better,if it were a lil' simpler.but then again...i guess,it's just a wishful thinking of a semi-drunk 20 year old..happy living folks.


ps: dear readers,i apologize for the grammatical errors in the casing of the letters,because i am too damn tipsy and frustrated to care for 'shift keys' and all.and to all those who are wondering,how i managed to write so properly,it's because from 12.03am to 12.50am,i have downed only 1 peg of the my alcoholic companion,and now,that i am done blogging,i must concentrate..:)