they say,there is a time for everything,and if you want to succeed in your life then that time-table should be maintained.but there-in lies 'me'.'coz you see,the clock in my computer says its 12.03 am,and a depressed 'me',is sitting in front of his laptop,with shaky hands,and a bottle(pint) of whiskey(which i stole from my dad's stock),and is writing down a blog,for which he couldn't decide a title.
they also say,that to be a good writer,you have to be an avid reader.well,as i m not much of a reader.I can't assure you,about the quality of this blog.all i can say is this is the perception of life,'through my eyes'.
i am blogging,because i want to,and its keeping my head occupied,from the world around me,of which i am so disgusted off..
i have some very basic questions going through my head right now,some of which i can't express in words,yet those which can,includes questions such as: "why does it happen,that decisions are based on our ego?",or"why is it,that we often tend to remember the bad memories,while we store the good ones in some cold-forgotten locker of our subconscious?".its really in times,when you are depressed as hell,does these questions come to your head,but you never get the answers....do you..!!
today afternoon,when i was working on designing my blog-page(yes,i m still a bloody amateur),i had a completely different topic in mind,which i was to post this evening.yet somehow,the chain of events leading up to the dreaded 12.03 am,demanded 'me',to 'this',which makes me think of yet another thing.."life's too unpredictable,don't you think".
as i take the first sip of this undiluted whiskey (tastes like hell),i can't help but ponder ,why does life has to be so hard all the time.it keeps coming back at you.it never gives you time to settle,and the moment you think,you have a leash on it,the 'happy' life,slips away again.i just wish,i am consumed by the silence and the darkness of the serene night.darkness is bliss.at
least for me.
so long for now,i just wish,life as it is,could be much better,if it were a lil' simpler.but then again...i guess,it's just a wishful thinking of a semi-drunk 20 year old..happy living folks.
ps: dear readers,i apologize for the grammatical errors in the casing of the letters,because i am too damn tipsy and frustrated to care for 'shift keys' and all.and to all those who are wondering,how i managed to write so properly,it's because from 12.03am to 12.50am,i have downed only 1 peg of the my alcoholic companion,and now,that i am done blogging,i must concentrate..:)
Well it has been a long time since I was thinking of updating my blog account,just to make it a tad more interesting read.So,here I am with an all rejuvenated blog of my own,coz at the end of the day 'JO DIKHTA HAI,WAHI BIKTA HAI' (if you present your product properly it will get sold).
So,after thinking a lot on what my first post should be,I couldn't think of anything else,but this topic.You see,love is a very powerful emotion,perhaps,the most powerful human emotion of all and it has been nearly 3 years now,that I am in love with someone..someone special..
In the last 5 years,I have seen many people claim that they have found their true love and they have been made for each other and all that stuff,only to part their separate ways after a few days,which brings a basic question to my mind-"How do you define love?"
Is it only the feeling of happiness and comfort in someone's company,the feeling that you can share all your worries and happiness with your partner,or is it something much more deep and complicated.
When you are spending a lazy winter afternoon with your loved one snugly fitted-in and you gaze deep into her eyes and watch your reflection on it,something deep strikes a note in your heart,telling you,that you want this moment to go-on forever.
In the last 3 years of my 'LOVE'(yes,I don't like the word 'relation'),I have seen many ups and downs.Sometimes it feels downright annoying and frustrating,yet somehow,after a while,the very frustration,the very person upon whom you are so desperately annoyed upon,seems to be the one whom you miss the most.There have been many such instances when we had a fight,and that too upon the most basic of things(well,now that I come to think of them),but the fact is 3 years down the line,she is still the only person,whose presence,whose touch,whose voice,I long for,so dearly.
I don't even know what I am saying and I know,I am not being able to put things down properly,this always happens to me,but the thing is I just wanted to share how much special she is to me,and in between all these fights and disputes,there have been those special precious moments of 'DIVINE MAGIC',which is all a 20 year old boy could ask for.
I dedicate this post to her,and I know,for the figure she has been to me,this is really not justified.Still this is my piece of mind,with all its imperfections.
I love you.
PS: And as always,I didn't quite come-up with what I expected.Somehow words and expressions always fail me,when I sit to write them down.Oh,well..so long,as for now,i leave you with a piece of my mind,more so,'a piece of my life'..
